Do we really treasure someone whom we loved so dearly only after they're gone?

Now lets look back and ask ourselves if we've done these things to/for our loved ones in 2009.

1) Despite having a hectic schedule, slow down once awhile and tell your dear ones that you love them and care for them?

2) Small actions to show them that you're still there for them?

3) Give them a hug or two just to comfort them?

4) Noticed that they've been rather upset for the whole day?

5) Have a conversation about them and them only?(showing that you're still interested in them?


well, if you never had the habit. DO START NOW because time is running out. No one is certain for sure when the time left you have WITH them is limited.

Because when they're gone.....
Sometimes, they're gone forever.

I know time is running out.
And once time has run out, there's none left for me.
And there's no more turning back.
Neither is there a 2nd chance given.
Because life is cruel, it's never fair. It snatches your love away from you.
No room for regret because nothing can be done.

And when the time comes, I have to let him go with no regrets.
Knowing that i have done my best for him, and i couldnt have been better.
Knowing that i have been by his side, giving him all the support i can ever give.



left her thoughts ♥ 5:58:00 AM

1001 emotions i'm dealing with right now. Had an emotional talk with bestie on the way home. The only person i can turn to right now, everyone's having exams, and i dont wanna be a burden to anyone.

i have a problem trying to find myself . Not with all the bottled up emotions.
One thing leads to another, one problem leads to another.

I am very very troubled. And honestly, i feel like going for councelling. But i know it wldnt be of any help. It's hard to solve the problems i have on hand.
More bad news for my dad.

There's so much i can take and so much i can handle.
Sometimes, i know its too much for my little brain to absorb and think for solutions.

I am fortunate, yet unfortunate.
I'm the only child, yet not everyone faces what i'm facing.
No siblings to share my burden.
This burden i'm carrying, its really really very heavy.

i feel like a lost girl. No one can give me advise because no one can understand how i feel because they've not been in my position. Or maybe they can relate to the particular unfortunate event that happened in my life. But i have never met anyone who has gone or is going through what i am going through right now, everything being thrown at your face.
i think i'm on the edge of breaking down real bad.

sometimes i feel so alone even though i have friends around me.
and i find myself not really myself lately, i have been spacing out every other minute. feels like i'm always in a daze, and i dont smile as much anymore.
i feel very sad.

Been praying every other minute of the day. I need to find my feet. I need to be strong.


I want a life that most single children have. The life that people always sterotype how a single child's life should be.

Every night i go to sleep, thinking that tomorrow's a brand new day and things will be better.
But it isnt. I dont know if i am deceiving myself.

I'm trying, still trying..



left her thoughts ♥ 12:25:00 AM

Isnt it too late to treasure the one you used to love after you've lost her?

Its too late, too sad...



left her thoughts ♥ 1:33:00 AM

I am suck in Ngee Ann Library trying so damned hard to study.
But production = -10. Munching the hours away, dozing off once in a while because of the effect of the cough medicine.
I wished I am better, but i'm still coughin my nights away and i'm lacking of sleep.
The nights are so darn hot that i actually perspire when i sleep! i cant turn on the air con and with the fan blowing straight at me, I still perspire like mad. =( I feel like a pig. =(

HAIYA... feel damn terrible la!



left her thoughts ♥ 5:20:00 PM

Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images
No

I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do








left her thoughts ♥ 8:19:00 PM

I am pretty much pissed right now.
I dont know what to say, but when i try to make things right, EVERYTHING always doesnt turn out right.

i am pissed.. not at anybody, just at the sequence of events and the tone that dad gave me and the screaming that i am going to get from mum later.

i am in a damn lousy mood.



Just as i am trying to make everything perfect.
Everything isnt perfect for me.



left her thoughts ♥ 7:09:00 PM

It sucks to be sick at this present moment. Time wasted and my studying time has shortened. Dang the flu bug.Thanks for attacking me at the wrong time. And i'm now waiting for the drowsiness to take over my soul.
I think i'm sprouting nonsense..



left her thoughts ♥ 2:00:00 PM

Time flies as fast as how the lightning strikes. I know its not the best description but its 12am on a Sat morning and i have a 7 hour lecture from 10am to 5pm on Saturday and on Sunday.. its totally draining. Anyway, back to the point, I just realised that next week marks our 5th month of being together.

But damnit, bad timing. the darn exams around the corner..
And i'm growing fatter day by day.


And.. i dont know what else to blog about.
i think i've became a B O R I N G person. =(



left her thoughts ♥ 12:18:00 AM

left her thoughts ♥ 1:31:00 AM

Why cant i have a perfect body?i'm not only talking the slim body, long legs, but i mean being healthy.
My IBS( irritable bowel syndrome) is killing me too!!!
just to enlighten you, here's an explanation about what IBS is. I understand that not many people heard of this before, me neither. If it wasnt for me having IBS, i wouldnt even know this existed.

What is irritable bowel syndrome (IBS)?

Irritable bowel syndrome is a disorder characterized most commonly by cramping, abdominal pain, bloating, constipation, and diarrhea. IBS causes a great deal of discomfort and distress, but it does not permanently harm the intestines and does not lead to a serious disease, such as cancer. Most people can control their symptoms with diet, stress management, and prescribed medications. For some people, however, IBS can be disabling. They may be unable to work, attend social events, or even travel short distances.

What are the symptoms of IBS?

Abdominal pain, bloating, and discomfort are the main symptoms of IBS. However, symptoms can vary from person to person. Some people have constipation, which means hard, difficult-to-pass, or infrequent bowel movements. Often these people report straining and cramping when trying to have a bowel movement but cannot eliminate any stool, or they are able to eliminate only a small amount. If they are able to have a bowel movement, there may be mucus in it, which is a fluid that moistens and protect passages in the digestive system. Some people with IBS experience diarrhea, which is frequent, loose, watery, stools. People with diarrhea frequently feel an urgent and uncontrollable need to have a bowel movement. Other people with IBS alternate between constipation and diarrhea. Sometimes people find that their symptoms subside for a few months and then return, while others report a constant worsening of symptoms over time.


Symptoms include

-Abdominal pain or discomfort for at least 12 weeks out of the previous 12 months. These 12 weeks do not have to be consecutive.
-The abdominal pain or discomfort has two of the following three features:
+It is relieved by having a bowel movement.
+When it starts, there is a change in how often you have a bowel movement.
+When it starts, there is a change in the form of the stool or the way it looks.

-Certain symptoms must also be present, such as
+a change in frequency of bowel movements
+a change in appearance of bowel movements
+feelings of uncontrollable urgency to have a bowel movement
+difficulty or inability to pass stool
+mucus in the stool
+bloating

Researchers have found that women with IBS may have more symptoms during their menstrual periods, suggesting that reproductive hormones can worsen IBS problems. In addition, people with IBS frequently suffer from depression and anxiety, which can worsen symptoms. Similarly, the symptoms associated with IBS can cause a person to feel depressed and anxious.

well, there is no cure to IBS, and yes, it can be HELL.. those symptoms as mentioned above, is EXACTLY what i'm experiencing.AND IT IS SO NOT COOL! quite alot of suffering actually.
I have to literally RUN to the toilet suddenly a few times a day. And i have DIARRHOEA ALL YEAR ROUND!.. sighs..


Why cant i be perfect?







left her thoughts ♥ 2:50:00 PM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!